There are three questions that I am asked when I am at a book signing: 1.How did you come up with the title? 2. What is the book about? 3. Does the book reflect your life?

This book is a work of fiction, but the stories are real. I was called a fat a** in PE for not winning an obstacle course. The same boy wanted to date me in 9th grade when I lost all the weight. I was so mean to him, who had become the quarterback of our high school football team, even now that I think about it he did not remember how he tormented me in junior high and then had the nerve to ask me out in high school. I didn’t forget even though my body had changed; my mind, attitude, self-loathing, and hatred of others didn’t. Heather and Rosemary have the satisfaction of shoving anger down the throats of those who humiliated them, but at what cost? Heart, Humanity, Caring, Love, Friendship; what will they give up to satisfy their need for revenge?

The title came from two different vantage points. Because of my hatred of self I hated being “fat.” I also had a fan club in junior high school that made it their daily routine to point out my fatness to others who just laughed. Lisa is my epitome of perfection to overcome the fan club or any obstacle that would not make her perfect, but at what cost? What and who chooses her vision of perfection?

To answer the 3rd question, I am a part of each of the four girls. Heather encompasses my bulimic attributes while Rosemary my addiction to pills, Lisa my expectation of perfection in all areas of life, and Cindy who learns to accept imperfections. All four girls are part of me each day, I have the choice of whom or a combination of each I want to be……Self-image is a daily choice, positive or negative, how I choose defines my identity and my path in life.

Tanya Attebery